Yup I’ve Moved

Due to some technical reasons I’ve had to move my blog to Blogger. I’ll be updating all my info ASAP…

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Just A Normal Workout Right?! Wrong

I pride myself on pushing myself self and my arm to the limit, well yesterday the limit pushed back. It was just a normal day with a normal workout. I was just starting doing Tony Hortons One on One Vol. 3 Core Synergistics MC2. This was the second time I was attempting to do the workout. Everything was going great through the warm up and first move but then the one legged burpee came up. I always modify burpees to leave out a push up. I was on my second one…

Jump

Squat one legged

Jump back one leggeg 

RIP!!!!

OWE!!!!!

Well ok maybe you wouldn’t have heard a rip but man I sure felt one! I crumpled on the ground in a ball in pain. This didn’t feel like a little strain this felt like I actually pulled something. Me be me I had to test out my ability and ya I didn’t get to far before I collapsed again.

I called my doctor and he said there was nothing I could do, he even used the word I feared he would “rest”. I hate having to miss workout days. That is my thing working out. Through out the day my core started to feel better but on occasion I’d do something that would make me feel like someone stabbed me in the stomach.

This morning I’m feeling pretty good still a little soar but much better than yesterday. I (even though it is killing me) am just going to rest and stretch today. I’m going to try Tony Horton’s One on One Vol. 3 Stretch and Recovery today. I’m hoping that with one more day of resting and a little stretch I can get a workout in tomorrow even if it’s a light one.

I Won’t Be Passing On The Past

Is it true that anorexia/eating disorders are passed on from generation to generation? I don’t think so and I’m going to brake the chain. You see I grew up with a verbally abusive father. He never thought my Mom was skinny enough so he kept on telling her she was fat and needed to lose weight. The end result was my Mom back anorexic and balemic.

I grew up taking care of both my parents. Mom had fibromyalgia and Dad was very hard of sight and had diabetes. I was raised to take care of both of them (oh did I mention they were divorced too). When I went to high school my father was putting pressure on me to be popular and join clubs and be active. This put some much stress on me I ate and ate way too much. I’m 5’3″ and went up to 136 lbs in my freshmen year. Now I know that’s not huge but when your father tells you your fat and will never be a super model it certainly feels huge.

In my Jr year I started to cut meals and watch what I eat. I started to stay late at school to workout and lose weight. When I entered my Senior year I was down to 111lbs and by the time I graduated I was 93 lbs. I would binge a day then not eat the next. Soon after losing my Grammy I realized I was miserable, I started to gain weight and went up to 105. I still workout and did so in excess. Meeting my soon to husband changed my outlook on life.

 He has helped stay on track and maintain being healthy at 112 lbs. I plan on teaching this path to Sam and make sure she never has to live through an eating disorder. I plan on educating her with the documentary Thin which Charlotte from The Great Fitness Experiment brought to my attention! I hope you my ED friends will fight with me in making sure our children will not follow our painful pasts!

I Didn’t Get My “You Time”

I’ll make this short and sweet! Today I did TurboFire Fire 45 (this time without the I’m new to class option) and One on One Diamond Delts. This wasn’t the best workout session. Was it because I was exhausted? NO Was it because I was in a lot of pain? NO Was I soar from yesterdays workout yes but that wasn’t the problem. No the problem goes by the name Samantha.

Yes my darling daughter has started to climb on things and her most favorite two things to climb on are the sofa and our bed. This led to a lot of pausing my workout walking over and disciplining Sam, taking her off whatever object she climbed, hitting the rewind button and continuing with my workout. This was done probably 4 or 5 times durning my workout. Yuppers it’s easy to say my nerves were frazzled and there’s nothing worse than Chalene talking to you about getting all your stress out and enjoying your “You time” when it really didn’t get to be your “You time”.

So this is my bitch post about how my “You time” was stolen from me from my beloved little girl, little thief!

Not Your Average Sunday

It was the weekend, Sunday in fact. I didn’t have to go to college and work, it was also summer so no homework to do, just laundery. The apt Randy and I were living in had a communal laundry room so we had to go to the ATM to get some change. Just a little trip down the road, a 5 minute venture, but I was wrong. This one trip to the ATM would turn my life upside down.

We were driving back with laundry money in tow when it happen. A car not looking speeded out of a parking lot and hit the passenger corner of our car, the side I was sitting on. Air bags inflated and caused me to see stars. Randy (always the practical one) told me to hurry up and get out of the car. In the process of unbuckling my seat belt I found out my arm was broken and dangling by my side. Randy seated me down on the curb of the road while the pain kicked in. The paramedics came and rushed me to the hospital.

Many opinions were throw our way as to what was needed for my arm, leave it alone or surgery, the first was chosen. A year and many test later no one could explain why I was still suffering from constant pain and loss of motion in my arm. Surgery was finally on the list of things to do. But a few days after the procedure to remove some bone a release some muscle tissue I found out it didn’t help.

Many more terms were thrown around but one finally made sense, thoracic outlet syndrome. A condition that basically means I have nerve damage somewhere between my neck and arm which cause loss of motion, constant pain and other wonderful issues.

So here I am, I had to give up my Graphic Design career and the successful path I was on, but what I got in return beside the pain is my daughter. A choice I don’t know I would have made if I was living the high life on a career driven path. I am also a fitness freak something you don’t associate with someone in constant pain. But that’s what I’ve strived to do, things that others told me I couldn’t.
“You cannot control what happens to you, but you can control your attitude toward what happens to you, and in that, you will be mastering change rather than allowing it to master you.” – Brian Tracy

Fire 55 EZ

Well yesterday was my rest day as well as my birthday. I had done TF HIIT 30 so my birthday rest was well deserved. I wanted to say that as of right now I am LOVING TurboFire. I haven’t tried all the workouts yet but the ones I have have gotten me hooked. Today I did the TurboFire Fire 55 EZ Class.

Going into the class my understanding was that the EZ classes didn’t have any Fire Drills in them but that was wrong. This class had one drill in it that you did twice after the normal 1 minute break in between. This is the 3rd of the longer classes that I have done and these classes have a tone of kickboxing in them (which is why I probably love them so much). Along with the Fire 60 Class this workout really requires you to use your mental strength to get through it and keep pushing. Telling your body that it can do it and having fun at the same time is part of what makes TF so brilliant.

I am truly in Love with this program. I have never had so much fun pushing myself so far and feeling so great afterwards. What Chalene says at the end of the programs is so true! http://youtu.be/xz8DJy-YGIQ

I am super excited to try more of the classes and mix them up with my other favorite BB programs!

Now I am not a BeachBody coach this is my own opinion. I am friends with a bunch of people who are BB Coaches and people who are addicted to BB workouts, so if you want me to hook you up with one of them just say the word.

3 Different Workouts In One Day

Today I had a lot of time on my hands and thought I’d fill it with a good healthy does of a workouts. With a bunch of workouts I had yet to try I had to narrow it down to three. I started out with Tony Hortons One on One Core Synergistics MC2, then I tried out Turbofire 30 Toning routine and followed it all up with Turbofire Stretch 40!

Core Synergistics MC2 was an awesome workout. It focuses one all the teeny tiny muscles in my core. Tony makes great use of the stability ball in this workout. I recently aquirded one and this was the first workout I got to try it out on. I had to alter some moves like the one legged burpee using the stability ball. Other moves like the medicine ball Dreya roll were quite fun! This workout ran for over 60 minutes but I didn’t do the cool down. By the time I was done I was covered in sweat!

Next I tried my second Turbofire workout. I’m borrowing this from a friend. I chose to do the Tone 30 workout (I didn’t want any cardio today). Chalean uses bands and leg bands in the workout. I only have 5lb dumbbells and the leg bands right now so that’s what I used. This was a great little workout. Chalean incorporates both upper and lower body in an exercise, so you’ll be doing bicep curls and sumo squats at the same time. Even after the few minute brake I took in between the workouts this little gem got the sweat going again.

Last but not least I ended my mega fitness day with Turbofires Stretch 40. This was a mini yoga routine with some great stretching. Chalean mostly focuses on the muscles used most for TF but it is a great stretch for any person who works out a lot. Chalean instructs very well in this workout and let my body feeling great.

All these workouts were awesome! And speaking of awesome please checkout my latest blog design, Tyler is a fitness machine and is your best source for YouTube reviews of P90X through Insanity workouts!

Stressful Living

I can admit that even with all my childhood troubles, problems and emotion turmoils I don’t think I have ever been in so much stress as I have been living here with Randy’s parents. Sure I have to love them and I do truly love his Dad but I think I’ve lost all love for his mother at this point. She doesn’t think before she speaks and has often said things to me that have made me almost burst out in tears on the spot. Like “I never thought you’d ever be able to complete the pregnancy because you have an anorexic past and are so skinny”. A few days after we brought Sam home she asked me obnoxiously if I really thought I’d be able to take care of a child with my disability.

So think about the anxiety you’d have by living under your inlaws and not knowing when they might come down and bug you and say what every they want, and you can’t retort back because your under their roof.

With everything going on I’ve almost broken down. But I haven’t. Yesterday I called my doc to up my antidepressant meds so I can make it through this hell in one piece and prove to my mother inlaw that I am still kicking, that I did successfully have Sam and yes I am taking care of her (probably not the way she wants) the best I can and am doing a great job of it!

As of a few days ago I decided that I want another baby. Something that I swore I didn’t want. But I looked back on my life at my care taking childhood and my failed career and becoming disabled. I look at my daughter and realize that she is the best thing I have ever done and I want to give her a playmate and do another great achievement!

“You cannot control what happens to you, but you can control your attitude toward what happens to you, and in that, you will be mastering change rather than allowing it to master you.” – Brian Tracy

I’m Struggling

I’m struggling but not in the way you think. Because of our 7 day power outage I’ve done a lot with my arm I normally wouldn’t this includes carrying my 15 month old a LOT more than normal and the lack of a heating pad which would help the pain in my arm, back and neck. Now that everything is resuming some normalcy I’m noticing my body is finding it a lot harder to workout (I did workout through the power outage by the way). I sweating more easily, my arm is giving way more and I am just exhausted and achy from the start of a workout till the end. I’m still pushing though.

Oh I’ve also apparently dropped 2 lbs in the past week because of the lack of my normal eating schedule. I’m now down to 109 lbs. I’ve been eating out a lot but not too unhealthy.

I’m going to do One on One Yoga MC2 today. Something tough but also something that will stretch my muscles! I missed talking to you all (all of you that actually read my teeny tiny itsy bitsy blog.

My Rock

You are what keeps me going. The thing that makes me push through and fight when all I want to do is give up. You tell me when things look bleak that things will get better and as you always promise even if it takes a while they do. You are my heart and soul, and light in my life. We have been through more than I could ever thing I could push through and you are always there to make me smile and give me a hug and kiss. You are my rock, my life, my best friend and my love.

As you recently know we have been without power for over a week. A WEEK! The power has gone on and off twice in the past three days. I’m hoping it stays on for good now. I’m saying no power that means now light, no AC, no heating pad to sooth my irritated and painful neck and back. This has been the week from hell for me. A week which made me swear everyday I hated living here and wanted to move back to PA. A week which made me crave my own life again and wish I wasn’t stuck in the basement of the in-laws. We did do a bunch of things I wouldn’t have done on a normal day. We took Sam to a small park and let her play in a stream. We went to the fare and I got to ride lots of fun (yet painful) rides. We’ve played hours of UNO and Go Fish and I am now officially back into candles and am convinced that Yankee Candle’s Buttercream and Vanilla Cupcake are the most amazing candle scents in the world.

I’m hoping to get pics up soon that we took. Ok I’m pushing publish just incase the power goes off again!